[and he had grown very good at self denial, at controlling it all into a measured allowance that barely touched the surface of what he wanted. but Doppo didn't need to know how deep his self sacrifice ran - not when it's about him.]
But then I also remember that I'm human. And no human can live without desire - and then I question if the reason I believe it is wrong is because it truly is, or because I am trying to make myself not want it.
Most of the time, I end up realizing that I should ask and take.
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Date: 2018-11-20 06:21 am (UTC)[and he had grown very good at self denial, at controlling it all into a measured allowance that barely touched the surface of what he wanted. but Doppo didn't need to know how deep his self sacrifice ran - not when it's about him.]
But then I also remember that I'm human. And no human can live without desire - and then I question if the reason I believe it is wrong is because it truly is, or because I am trying to make myself not want it.
Most of the time, I end up realizing that I should ask and take.